My Miscellaneous Musings

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(via ilovehimbigtime)

“Hindi ka pa nagka-boyfriend? ‘di nga?”

One reason that made me think of writing this because many people have asked me about having a boyfriend. Some would assume that I already had one and asks me how long ‘our’ relationship was. I would always say to them that I never had one, because I never did had one. Most of them didn’t believe me and I don’t know why.

Well, I understand that normally people with the same age as I am, had been or are currently in a relationship. That’s just not me; I belong to the minority of young women who never had a single boyfriend in her life.  I am not bothered or ashamed by it if I do may say so myself. I’m not saying that I don’t want to be in it because I would be a hypocrite if I say so. It’s just that being in that kind of relationship is something that is special, because you cannot have that relationship with just anyone. It’s something that you share with a person that you have mutual feelings with.

You know, sometimes I do wonder how it feels like to have a boyfriend (that’s me being honest with her feelings). But of course, I wouldn’t want to have one just for the sake of experiencing it. When it’s my time, I want the relationship to be true.  

So, here I am, patiently waiting for the one God destined me to be with. I am not waiting for the ‘right’ guy or the ‘perfect’ guy because one, there are a lot of ‘right’ guys out there and two, no one is perfect. While the one God destined me to be with is ONLY ONE, he is mine and I am his. I don’t know if I already met him or are yet to meet him. When that time comes, I will know for sure. 

How wonderful it will be if I will be able to say these words when I finally found the person that is destined for me:

“Thank you Lord God. You know how much I’ve waited for this person to come. I will love him until the end of my life. I will love all of him especially his imperfections. I will provide him a family and a home that is filled with joy.” 

“When my time ends Lord, I want him to be the last person I see before I close my eyes. The last touch I would feel before I become numb. The last voice I would listen to before I could not hear anything anymore.”

So, until when I will stay single since conception? Let’s wait and see. ;)

-Joan Capistrano

ATTENTION! Bahala ka kung feeling mong ikaw ito. HAHA : P

“I wanted to write something about someone that I care about.”

This someone is different from the few other guys that I know of. (Few, because I don’t really have many guy friends.) There’s something about this person that draws me to him and what is that? I don’t know yet. Sometimes I think that he’s too good for me. We are somehow an opposite of one another. Here are just two of the opposites:

• When talking about academics, I belonged to the average class while he is in the excellent class. 
• He’s a bookworm while I’m not. I only finished reading 5 books as far as I can remember and I can only tolerate reading short ones without getting drowsy/sedated.

Our relationship isn’t the one you can call ‘special.’ We seldom talk to one another. We rarely see each other. So, how can you expect a relationship to progress if we’re like that? Zero to negative. I understand that he’s a busy guy because his chosen course occupies a lot of his time. I am truly happy and touched at the same time when he finds the time to talk to me even though he’s busy.

There were some instances that I wanted to text him and chat with him on either Facebook or Yahoo Messenger but I can’t. I wanted him to be the first one to say Hi, NAHIHIYA KASI AKO! (I’m shy!). I’ve only tried it once, but I swear not to do it again, because it almost gave me a heart attack. Yeah, I’m weird, I know. Umaatake kasi yung pagiging dalagang Pilipina ko (Paano ba to sa English? please translate haha). 

So, do we have a chance? I don’t know, God knows. 

-Joan Capistrano